pattern of life

Open my eyes

let them adjust to the darkness

I can see the pattern

of going nowhere fast

Always ending up in the same place

no matter how fast I run or how slow I walk

The destination always seems to be the same

gloomy when I look at it from this angel

Being in the moment and living it is not so bad

but when I already know the ending before I even finish the first chapter

why bother reading the book?

I already read a version of it before

No reason to suffer through the sadness as tears soak my cheeks

Maybe it is best to just put the book down and walk away until

I am ready to write a new ending